Home has been tough. I’ve maybe had the worst week ever. Being sick made me panic and that made me even sicker. My body wouldn’t stop moving. I think I named myself “marathon” for how much I ran. I’m going to lose weight. I finally took some medicine to get my panic more in control.
I’m longing to feel like myself. I’m close. I’ve been learning so much about myself, though. I’m going to mention a few things.
First, I am managing to make progress against mania in two ways. One is my getting obsessed with something. I can fight against that brain guy with my smarts and logic. The other is battling what my eyes do to my brain when I see something moving fast or with lots of designs. I hear screaming in my head. I can’t outsmart that but I can make that go away by using my amazing listening. Music is a lifesaver again.
Mom and I also listened to this book dad found about brains and how we think [Daniel Kahneman, Thinking, Fast and Slow]. That was awesome.
Mom says what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. I’m proof of that!